Helza Shine- Voice

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02 Aug  2023
Dear Diary,
Have you ever wanted to crush a baby? throw one? No? what kind of liars are reading my blog? Come on not even once??
Like you are telling me you all see babies and don't feel the need to crush them?
What is wrong with you?
Argh babies Peasants.

We all  Most of us have had these intrusive thoughts. On the edge of a cliff? Wanna jump? Not really but would feel good to jump. The difference between good or bad (in your language) is how we act upon our intrusive thoughts.

You will never throw a baby. Will you? 

I will without a second thought. I might even crush it. Not because I hate babies (ok maybe that too), primarily because that is what that voice wants. I love hearing her. Her raspy whisper soothes my soul. Her repeated whispers really love control. She is a goddess to be honest. She always has the best advice on literally everything.

Hypothetically, she could have told me how to carve out his heart. How to enjoy his screams. How to make the last scream count. How to provide pain till the last breath. How to actually drag him out to the truck, How to put a body in a thresher, How to... well hypothetically a lot of things.

The point is her voice is so pretty, so beautiful and so tempting. How can you resist a goddess' voice??

I cannot.

I am on my knees for her. Yet she never did anything that I did not enjoy... eventually. I was a scared little girl until I heard her. Her first command was difficult, of course for a 14 year old, carving a mini heart on your ex boyfriend's arm was a difficult task. I will be lying if I say I did not enjoy it- a liberating, addicting and peaceful revenge. 

I know, I sound like a psychopath. Don't worry honey, I am one. I score 35 out of 40 in Bob Hare's Psychopath checklist so I am an intellectual psychopath. Ta-da!

Every 1 out of 100 people you see is a psychopath. If you are in a university with average of 10,000 students, there are 100 psychopaths among them. See? We are not that rare, just infamous if we put the tag. I am tired of being in closets so I put my label proudly. 

Let me be one, it is much safer for you if I am free in open anyway. 

Your Worst Nightmare
Helza Shine

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Note- All blog posts are fictional.

Comments

  1. Jeswin JGAugust 3, 2023 at 9:21 PM

    Good one, infact an alarmingly scary kind.. but i was expecting something more with this baby .. i mean more evil or u can say some narrative kinda..

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    1. Helza ShineAugust 11, 2023 at 1:16 PM

      SURE JESSI SURE WE ARE HAVING A BLOODBATH NEXT!!

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